A comment about peace

You can post my comments anytime! I don't know if I have ever experienced that kind of peace. I love having these conversations with you. It's one of my favorite things to do. :-)

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I love these conversations too. remember that just because I write them doesn't mean I have figured it out :) I have experianced peace, that could only come from God, but truthfully I do not think that I have fully experianced the peace that scripture is talking about :) I think it is something that through a deeper, growing relationship, we kind of grow into. In human stand point it doesn't make sence, we think God I am sooooo messed up right now, that it is hard to be really close to you, so give me the peace first and then I will get closer! But he tends to work the opposite and when we say God I am soooo messed up please give me peace, he says draw closer to me and I will give you peace. And we finally submit just a little and we get alittle peace and we draw a little closer. The more we draw near to him, then the more peace we have. It is not easy, it is actually hard because it takes a submition of the will (and our wills have ruled for a long time and they do not like to bend:). And like I said before, we then have to submit what we thought we knew. For me I tell God that I cannot draw closer to him or submit, because I have been hurt and disappointed to many times. I feel that God has let me down. BUT what I have come to realise is again that what he told me was not wrong, it was my very narrow view or expecation of what he told me. And then I held on to my expectation instead of letting it Go and just watching God. Letting it go and just listening to God. Letting it go and trusting. Does this mean that if we accomplish this that we won't be hurt?? NO!!!! We will still get hurt, the world is a crappy place and bad things happen. But we have developed a deeper relationship with God and have been practicing the giving it back to him, over and over again, and the peace is there, the love is there, the forgiveness is there. I don't know, this is just me rambling :) Some days I am very good at this!!! And some days I don't get out of bed!! But the days in bed or getting fewing :) Again, I love you, and I love these conversations too. They really grow me.
Barby